rise.

i feel all of a sudden stripped bare
left in the cold, reaching for something to hold
they say the father up above is looking down in love
and all i must do is abide

abide. to be still.
to rest, rest in the rivers of his peace
to release, release my control and trust his will

release —
open hands, eyes up.
unclenched jaws, uncrossed arms
crying hosanna, Savior come
hosanna, save me now
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slipping by // pt. 1

dear january —

xii. something about the frigid temperatures that you bring, mixed with raw emotions based on unfortunate circumstances, and unsettling social media dms that don’t quite sit well in my being… made me slink back into emptiness.

xiv. beauty broke free that evening. the melodies of one voice shook my heart. i had to stop trying. stop living from a state of mind that i could change it. i resolved to step in and the song that came through made my heart jump off the walls of my desperate soul. that night he scored a victory. thank you for revelations and break-throughs.

xvii. when someone like him leaves i cry. ’nuff said.

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friday feelings

the silence was deafening–
then voices. echoing, booming
faces danced along the walls

i wanted to hide

then his face appeared–
ahh his face
beyond words

just two words: infatuated love

a whisper in the dead of night–
stirs my wrestling mind
be still my heart he says

till i feel a peace of mind

139.

O God, you know everything about me.

you know when i’m fully engaged and full of whimsy and when I am frustrated, beaten down, and exhausted. you know when I am excited and when i am upset. you know when I am content and when i just feel like throwing myself on my bed and sobbing. you don’t need to read my blog, or my journal, or the last text conversations i had with my best friend, or even the last scripture i highlighted to find out what’s on my mind. you know full well what makes me tick, frustrated, and annoyed even better than i do, because sometimes i don’t even know what to think!

you, Lord, cast the vision. you go before me and know what will come along my way. you go behind me watching my back. you place your hand on me even now, making sure i am okay because you, Father, always want the best for me. let me not, Lord, ever run away. if i were to run away let me run to You– because you, the king of my heart, are the mountain when i run and the shadow where i hide. because really, there’s no such thing as running away. 

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i need a silent night

Emmanuel- God with us. Prince of Peace. Savior. Son of God.

Jesus help us to focus on you- the bringer and creator of peace. YOU are the reason for the season. help us to stop and remember You, amidst all the chaos and the noise this Christmas season.

 

my lifeguard

my spirit wavers amidst the wind,
my thoughts swerve in and out,
i am doubting… trying to see your hand
pull me out, O God, right now

i feel alone; thrashing in these waves

O Lord, i’m yearning for you
i’m longing for your embrace
i’m longing to see your glorious face
i’m corrupted- i’m in need of your grace

i deserve to drown

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the secret for a “less-stressed” life

God doesn’t promise us with a perfect life; that’s for certain. nor does he guarantee a 100% stress-free one either. but why is there so much stress in life? God says it’s OK, He’s got you covered. i am reminded to turn my cares onto Jesus for He will take care of my troubles.

trust that He has a plan. trust that He will see you through. God doesn’t promise us a “no-stress” life. but as Christians, we can look to Him with our stress. in Him, we find perfect Peace.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30